Everything is so easy to get & so easy to throw away...

As I sit here at a coffee shop drinking my 5 shot espresso over ice, because I'm obviously super tired haha, I cant help but people watch. A cute older married couple drinking there black coffee sitting talking about there plans for the day, a college kid with about ten books in from of him reading, a mother talking on the phone as her five year old is playing on his ipad. I look at the older couple and cant help but have so much respect for there generation. They literally had to work for everything they have, they cherish all of the things in there lives because they had to earn it. Our generation is filled with consumers who value things rather then the price of things. Everything is so easy in our generation and the minute it gets the least bit hard we have the tendency to just leave and move on to the next thing. Nothing is valued.  While generations before ours fixed things that were broken, we leave it broken and find something new. This mentality plays into our everyday life be it in our physical belongings or our relationships. This is why our divorce rate is so high people are always looking for the next best thing, yet the best thing could be right in front of them and they don't even see it. I've fallen guilty of this myself and I have made a stand to change. I always thought I was born in the wrong era, but what I can do is change mine. If I change the way I am, the way I think, and start cherishing my possessions and relationships my reality could be the era I most desire. We all have the ability to change our future and get everything we want we just have to change our way of thinking, change our behavior and we can have it, and I will have it all! 

You are you. Now isn't that pleasant?

It is better to be hated for who you are than loved for who you are not - Andre Gide

 We live in a world full of constant judgment and people trying to make you into what they want you to be. It takes a lot of strength and courage to be 100% true to yourself and who you are and stand up for what you believe in. Sometimes we let others manipulate us into becoming something we're not just to make them happy with out even knowing. We try to please the people we "love" and by doing that we then loose ourselves. I admire people who are so true to who they are without worry of judgment or acceptance. I've delt with this battle over and over thinking the outcome would in some way be different. I don't go places, I don't do things, I sacrifice my dreams for someone to make them feel "secure" and by doing that I lost myself. I loose what truly makes me happy. I look back and realize what I've given up for some people who have been a part of my life and although I am so mad at myself for doing that I wouldn't change it because each mistake or sacrifice I've made on a count of someone else has taught me so much bout myself. It has taught me that the right people in my life will care & love me for me, 100% me. I don't have to fake who I am or pretend to be someone or something else for anyone. I look at people who have so many masks they are truly lost in who they are and my heart breaks. I can't imagine living a life where I had to hide who I am and what I believe is right. Cause if we aren't true to ourselves in life than who are we living for? 

As i sit ....

As I sit here and look on events that have occurred in my life, all the good and all the bad. I am grateful for every single moment. Every time I was sad, happy, full of joy, felt alone, felt defeated and felt empowered. Every time I was taken for granted, not appreciated, admired, loved. It has made me who i am. It's easy to sit there and get down on yourself because your "perfect" image of your life isn't the way you wanted it or something you never imagined could happened actually did happen. Thats the easy way to deal with life's obstacles just play the victim. As I sit here I cant help but feel the complete opposite. I have never felt so true to myself, loved and proud of who I am as a person, where I have come and how tall I have risen from these hills in my life. I cant help but be so grateful for every moment because I wouldn't ever want to be anyone other than who I am right now. I'm far from perfect and I constantly need to check myself but I love who i am. I was always taught if you do the right things in life  and are a good person the right thing will happen. Who you are when no one is looking is who you truly are, you cant fake being a good person or doing the right thing. You have to live with yourself. I started this blog to inspire and touch people, to make a difference in someone else life as I share my own. You are what you think and if you think you are a bad ass who can conquer anything you are! Don't let people, situations or incidences in your life make you feel anything but empowered to stand back up and stand taller than ever before.

Dreamer, Lover & Fighter

My name is Jessica Loft. I am a dreamer, a lover and a fighter. I've wanted to start a blog for many reason. One for my makeup artistry. To show people tricks & tecqniques to better makeup artistry, to help every woman feel beautiful in her own way. Second to be open, show people who I am so they can have inspiration to be whatever they want to be. As long as they have passion, a dream and drive to do so. My life has been one hell of a roller coaster. I have loved, lost people close to me, been in the darkest place imagined and alone. But I have never once wanted to quit my dream, have a negative outlook on life or change a moment in it. I believe what doesn't kill you makes you stronger and I'm stronger than I have ever been. No one can hold me back from becoming everything I want to be. My hope is to be an inspiration to people, be it in artistry or in life. Never give up, Never Surrender!!